Lubek's Morality Musings... 7/21/04 -------------------------------------------- Coherent or incoherent thinking (thus behavior) has a lot to do with chemicals and neuro transmiters in our brain, like dopamine that causes different moods, swings and our life is always filled with confusing, challenges, hate and much more, but one underlying thing remains the same, one basic thing does not change... At the end of the day, what you believe in stays the same no matter what happens. I believe it's important people concentrate on one thing at a time and if they dont at the end of the day they will loose it all, because you can not do it all and succeed at it. (usually) By now I hope you understand me and dont hold any animosity or harboring some ill feeling towards me for my actions and questions towards you. If I did have to go to put u thru tough questions, I had to but I always supplemented that with kind words, emails, nice cards pics and some encouraging things/words, news, facts, stuff like that.(and you even dont say thank you or show me you can be sweet because that is not your style... bullcrap... WHAT ARE YOU TRYING TO PROOVE THIS WAY, THAT DOES NOT IMPRESS ME ANY) You also must realize people lied to me over the years they were virgins. I found out when I sent my pics and I found out when I did not send my pics. But there is more to it than just some picture... And I dont want you to talk to me just because you think I am a model or had the chance to be one, that is a catch I use to see if people want just the body or more what's on the inside, deep beauty which does not age, shring or diminish with the passage of time. I believe the virginity (part of chastity) of a woman shows her morals, ethics, values, her strenght, respect for herself and may be others. Waiting until marriage: encyclopediasupreme.org/valentine/Marriage Now, sometimes women remain virginis because of they disgusting character, hard to get along with, well that's a different story. Also swearting to God and lying is totally unacceptable, why, because you lie under oath and if you do, whoever does that it shows those people have no respect, values and things like that backfire later on on them and on their loved ones, it creates problems and things like that speak for themselves about the value and quality of people who only care for themselves and not others. I try not to put too much emphasis on this sex thing but it is symbolic to me, it's not just about sex, it's about the character of an individual. Those people are virgins, because it's not just the sex act that counts, it's the free will behind it, the drive. Also I had people email me telling me they are born again virgins and second virginity counts... that means no banging for a long time until marriage and/or true honest relationship. People tell me they are honest, sincere and stuff like that. U know what? I am glad they are doing this and I am glad they chose to do it, for the sake of their own bodies and love. But what they dont realize how blind they are. When I tell them they are not virgins, they messed up, they are angry at me. They are angry when I tell them where was the love, or was it just lust, just to see how it was, just so they can see how it feels? Well, some of them I dont blame because they were raised without a parent, grew under wrong impression and were never thought right from wrong but I still believe everybody knows what's right or wrong, I believe we were all given innate recognition and guidance for right or wrong, no matter what race we may be, we are still responsible for our actions and there is no excuse. (except if you are seriously messed up in your head, but that's another story... why did they become messed up in the first place? Because of imperfection and lack of consciousness and respect for one self and others) Now, I dont claim under any circumstances to be a saint or some person with super moral values... I think sex is something we need but it's also wicked and causes destruction. (just like money and greed) I also know sex is something we can live without, nobody died without sex yet, but many died during sex.(overstrain) And it's not easy just writing it, it's different in practice. I may be one of the very few people who has demands of a chaste woman, like I do, but what I know is deep and right and that is my conviction and it's based on higher understanding level of thinking. And no I dont claim to be a big time intellectualist or a genius, it's all from experience I acquired during my life time but it's also from the senses and observation of people and how they mess up things. It also comes from pain and misunderstanding others inflicted upon me. You asked me how can I miss you even without knowing you? Hey, I can miss you even without seeing you, the thoughts and the feelings connect me to another person I know I can connect with, I dont need to hear or see them. All it takes is to feel them. And there is more I want to tell you but that can not be now, only time will explain it all to you (if we are to remain friends and talk to each other for a long time to come) Also I want you to be careful in your every day life. Do you remember what I said.. the best people go away fast and I dont mean just death (even though that's possible) but I mean go away in different directions, not knowing where they are going. Strange... I can take lots of crap and pain but this virginity thing is just huring, sometimes even killing me, especially when young women choose to do it and do it thinking it's ok... how sad & pathetic. When you throw the fish out of the water on the boat, she will not know she really belonged in the water until she is thrown back. It's like a parallel universe in front of her nose. So dont be fool because until you lose it and regain it, you wont know what you lost. Not jut in Newtonian physics law appies what goes up must come down but it's in every day life, it is the law of physics and life what goes around comes around and in some cases with interest.